Dark Cloud Invasion

Posted: November 16, 2013 in Uncategorized
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The reason for this blog? Who knows really. I guess my disability brought me here. Several months ago I was given the diagnosis of ME/CFS, Fibromyalgia was also mentioned. I think it started back in 2008 when I started getting nasty dizzy spells, to the point I walked like a drunk person, bouncing of walls and fences as I walked down the street.
Things slowly got worse and in 2012 i was signed off work. My doctor thought it was stress related due to my job and I had already put my back out 4 months before which, was adding to the problem. At this point I believe my doctor was holding out on me, as 6 months later he thought I had PVFS. After a multitude of blood tests and scans, for any illness that can display in the same way ME does, I was finally diagnosed by an ME/CFS specialist. Its now been 20 months since I was signed off.
So that is that. I keep taking my antidepressants, pain killers and gastric pills and I wait. Not entirely sure what for though, its not like I’m going to magically get better over night, though I wish I could. I went to see my specialist the other week and they just said “keep up with the pacing”.

Unsurprisingly, I’m depressed and the pills don’t work anymore. I sit at home, all day everyday, apart from the days I visit my father. I can’t really go places because of the pain and lack of money to do so. Our friends have drifted away because they no longer have anything to say and to be honest, I don’t have the energy to fake a smile anymore.

Anyway, its an exciting day today, I get to put the heating on and have a shower, how’s that for a great bit of excitement.

Peace & love

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  1. Praying for improvements in your condition!

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